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>>43

>do you dream?

I haven't, not lately at least, BUT a few months back, after experiencing some heavy shit under psychodelics, I started to have recurring nightmares where my hands would rot and twist into ugly fokin shapes

It happened at least 20 times, and I would usually never be able to wake up; I would go directly onto the next dream, which I always ended up confusing with reality

The nightmares usually started with me doing something mundane, like, walking around my room, when suddenly, I would notice something weird, like being able to see with my eyes closed. Afterwards, yeah, my hands would do all of the things mentioned above


Its an awful experience, but im really glad that I haven't had to deal with anything of the sort for a good while now

>>45
>I would go directly onto the next dream
this is something that happens to me all the time

ive explained it to people before and i dont think everyone gets this. personally i probably have anywhere from like 2-6 dreams a night sometimes… i usually dont remember them, sometimes i can remember the transition period between two seperate dreams, that "moving" between dreams can often push me into lucidity.

>The nightmares usually started with me doing something mundane, like, walking around my room, when suddenly, I would notice something weird, like being able to see with my eyes closed.
when i was a kid i read somewhere you can train yourself to realize you are in a dream. the method i used was every time i walked in my bedroom i would pick something up to check if there was a "big red button" under it - it sounds weird but it works. but you have to do it every single time you enter your room etc. and when you dont see the "big red button" you think "ok. im not dreaming"

i kept doing that and one day eventually i picked something up and bam. big red button. i was dreaming and instantly realized it - as soon as that happened i had full control of my dream. its an interesting experiment to try especially if you want to gain better control over your dreams IMO

lately i've been dreaming of a forest, and some nearby areas, interestingly my "dream world" seems to be pretty consistent, i often visit the same locations… it's kinda weird tbh i don't think i've ever had a consistent dream world like this

Most of my dreams consist of spaces with fewer people or animals. I remember one dream I would inhabit for maybe a summer took place in a ruinous but mostly intact industrial building.

It had an ambiance kind of like Sevastopol from Alien: Isolation, but on earth. There never seemed to be an exterior. One area i spent a lot of time in was a loading dock area. It consisted of a long, wide concrete hallway with Sevastopol lighting, and on one half the floor ramped down to a lower part at a shallow angle. There seemed to be some kind of doors on that side of the building which i sorta feel like faced south.

There was tatters and trash everywhere. There was an entrance on the east end of the hallway to some other building, but I don't know where the lower part led. The hallway continued to the west, and larger hallways or doorways in some cases lined the northern wall of the area, they seem built for transporting large containers, or smaller and obviously for pedestrian traffic or maybe like a power jack/pallet jack.

There *is* an exterior, but i never found a way to get to it from inside the first building. I can kinda remember a few things that happened there, but it was a really long time ago and this was probably a summer's worth of dreams.

I also have hypo and hypnapompic imagery, but i can still have regular dreams too

i don't dream, and if i dream, i can't remember

had a fucked up dream last night. was just sitting at my pc when these serious foss guys bust in the room. they looked pissed and started yelling that i had to switch to firefox immediately, going on about how chrome is proprietary spyware and only open source can be trusted.
i tried telling them to fuck off but they wouldnt listen. one of them took over my keyboard and forced the install while lecturing me about licenses. when firefox opened everything felt off and slow, like my whole setup was ruined.
woke up in a cold sweat. im still using chrome but that dream felt way too real. these foss weirdos are even invading my sleep now wtf.

i just had a reall coool dream

had a really nice conversation reminiscing with a fictional character. the setting was my childhood home, except only parts of the the exterior and parts of the outside walls. then i encountered the son of my neighbor, except he looked kinda like a guy that played Tekkn 3 Tag Tournament at an arcade i went to for a short time like ages ago. also my neighbor never had a son. then we started talking and realized we got along famously, except he never existed, that neighbor had 2 daughters.

also, i was in my room loooking out towards the rear of the house and i saw a weird stubby donkey that i kept calling Burro get into a fight with a Boar, and i grabbed my binoculars to see what they were. that little donkey ran off and for some reason could jump really high. thre was also a third animal i couldnt recall. in this dream i also had a dog. also i drank some orang ejuice.

the cool part of that conversation was thinking that we were like, enemies but realizing we got along really well. then i told him about that guy i knew named The Dart. the dream also featured a conversational flashback like in a movie where 2 characters are talking about something and the the conversation elapses via a flashback scene.

at one point while i was looking at the burro and boar tussle through binoculars and the burro escaped by jumping onto a fence, and then right up off the fence onto a roof. i watched the boar run off into the thicket / woods. and i saw what i thought was a deer run out but it turne dout t be a horse with 2 like teen boys on the back of it, except it also had a platform. they were like on the platform with some stuff they were transporting back, then i opened the window and shouted at them "HEY! WHATS WITH THE HORSE???"

well i just had the god damned weirdets dream ie ever had

one weird thing i noticed was that i was listening to something talking about the panama papers when i went to sleep, and it seem to have worked some details in there but the chronology is way way off, because that shit ended like hours and hours before i woke up because of a continuity error in which a very quick robotic rabbit was biting me in the ass as i was climbing a tree after avoiding it behind this tree

the last thing i remember is looking over a balcony and seeing a dog running across the street on the far side before a car crashed into it, and then it went flying into a field before smashing into a robot which was somehow activated by it and also became wheeled of tracked. then the robot went haywire, crashed into a sheet metal barn, then the barn became like assimilated by it. this thing went haywire as well and became a very quick robotic rabbit which i guess targeted me after i rushed down to i think maybe try and save the dog, its very hazy already and highly convoluted

whats interesting is that when i climbed the tree to avoid this very quick rabbit shaped robotic thing, what woke me up was that it should have been injuring me but i felt no pain. its like why the fuck would not all the rest of this dumb shit not trigger my skepticism?

there was also a part of the dream where i went into this abandoned building where Sonic Youth was playing

man getting my ass destroyed by a possibly cybernetic rabbit is really a headscratcher

had a very odd dream where there were these fbi guys who were looking for a tape that my grandpa had before he died and for some reason my aunt was in my house cleaning my dishes and explaining this to me and i was like 'oh i have that tape' but i had recorded over it already

when i first found it i played the tape and it was just static, for some reason i was like 'this might be important' so i recorded the tapes static audio with my vhs player and rca cables into my audio interface. so when my aunt told me the fbi was looking for this tape i was like 'well ill send them the recording' knowing that it was probably digital data on the tape that they could decode the audio recording back into.

so she called the fbi guys and they said they would come to tallk to me then they actually never did and they emailed me instead. when i saw that they just emailed i was like 'fuck these guys' and didnt wanna send them their shit. then suddenly i was in this weird railway tunnel, like right outsidde the actual tunnel and there was some weird shit going down. a train came down the track closest to the tunnel wall and i used that as an opportunity to try and get away from the tunnel cause it was like something ominous was going on over there. then these final fantasy looking people caught me basically and i woke up

Thought I'd share something I've noticed from keeping a dream journal for the past couple of years. Certain symbols keep showing up for me in cycles, and they almost always mean the same thing.

Staircases are the big one. Whenever I'm at some turning point in waking life, like deciding whether to quit or start something, I dream about staircases. Spiral ones, broken ones, ones that lead down into dark water. Once I started writing them down with dates, I could practically track my anxiety about real decisions by what the staircases looked like. Intact ones usually meant I'd already made up my mind without admitting it to myself yet.

Doors are another. Locked doors show up whenever I'm avoiding a conversation I don't want to have. The funny thing is the dreams never tell me anything new, they just say what I already know in a louder voice. Journaling made that obvious. Before I wrote anything down, every dream felt random. After a few months of entries, the patterns were impossible to miss.

Anyone else have a personal symbol that keeps returning? I get the feeling these archetypes are partly universal but mostly custom-built out of whatever your life looks like.

i had a very weird dream last night where this magician had a duck turn into a bird, then the bird turn into a kitten. then i realized that he had somehow surgically put the kitten inaide the bird, and the bird inside the ducj, and that the duck and bird were both dead. then i saw the kitten was crying for the bird because it thought it was its mom. and for some reason i realized this kitten had also been modified somehow where its torso down was actually a dogs body. then it suddenly had grown bigger and it was like i had been taking care of it. it looked sorta like a lynx but with dark grey hair and was as big as a dog and its back was weird and caved in. i remember seeing it walk into a body of water and swim and thinking about how unnatural it was. it felt like some sort of strange symbolic thing going on. then i thought about how it would get along with my real cat and thats when i realized i was dreaming and woke up

i had a dream where i went to an alternate universe where my friend wasn't a writer, and he did music instead. i was with my old buddy alan from HS even though he died early this year. when i found (my writer friend)s number i called him and he said "what up (something that sounds like my name but isnt)", and i said what, then he called me "ray", then i asked him if he didnt know who i was why he would call me that. he wasn't sure. i was about to tell him i knew him in an alternate universe but i got this odd feeling and i got a flash of a white screen with black text in my mind, the black text was big font that just said "-9,999" or something and i thought that was a sign i would create a time paradox if i kept saying more so i hung up.

then i was talking with my friend alan and a chinese guy i who i cant remember

then the dream switched to one where donald trump wanted us, it was me and my dad and donald trump requested us specifically.

we were at this place i used to work at but it was set up like a sort of meeting place. when you walk in there was a poster on the wall, it looked like a Lincoln log type object - like a 3d cylinder, orange with a white background. and said something regarding 'your potential' - maybe like those motivational posters?

then we walked over and there was a group of us to meet trump and when we met him i thought maybe i wasn't supposed to be there but he addressed me directly. he gave me a sticker type thing that became a small blade and told us to stick it to our phones so we could use our phones for protection. mine wouldn't stick to my phone so i put it on a lighter. his words seemed cryptic to me.

when we left, a group of people were waiting and asked what was going on and why we were called. everyone explained and was confused, then i told my group i thought that trump was speaking secretly, and that he was trying to tell us something about extra terrestrials or similar, and i started using the poster and his words regarding self defense and something else i cant remember as examples.

then i was on a train, it felt more like a school bus, in the middle of a winter landscape. the train stopped because of the snow maybe. near a big forest and we heard the trees bending and cracking, as we all listened scared and some girl asked "what could do that to the trees"

we sat and looked to try and see what was doing it, then i noticed very close by under a bridge sort of, on this river, there was a military ship, like a secret vessel with antennas and stuff, just hardly in view at all, foggy, i saw a shine on it. we thought maybe they had something to do with the noise. as the ship approached slowly the train began to move and i felt relieved.

then i woke up